HOPELESS AND HAPLESS !

HOW often have you heard that term called a dejected mukund kedia nowadays ? quite a few times i guess isn't it and its all because of that rotten stuff shriveled into a once excellent mind that is now churning out excellent failures one after the other. Brilliant, marvelous and stupendous - the downfall has been described by the Satan himself in the aforementioned three words. i have pressed the button of self - destruction in July and the bomb is ticking now and i have not much of a time left. i have repeatedly missed and overrun numerous important deadlines that were set by myself in all the aspects concerning my everyday life and have miserably failed to inch even a an mm closer to even the least important of them. my parents have given me much more than i deserve at this present moment, yet instead of being indebted towards them my attitude has further touched a new nadir. I have myself now assumed the role of the chief architect for the complete decimation of the existence of the mukund kedia of yore. uncountable resolutions have failed to move this dormant mind of mine into a self - retrospection mode as a result of which i am being engulfed in the killer whirlpool of time as each microsecond whizzes pas me - reminding me of what i used to be and what i have become. the resolution moved at the start of the session is now deemed fit to be framed and revered by me without bringing even an iota of it into everyday application let alone the high sounding crap which was jinxed never to be fulfilled. just being belligerent towards yourself in this form of scathing criticism does not bring about any desirable results, what is the need of the hour id to regroup myself from termination and revive my soul before its too late.