FAILURE :(

I REALLY DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY. ALL MY OVERCONFIDENCE HAS GONE OUT OF THE WINDOW. THE ANNUAL EXAM RESULTS WERE QUITE THERAPEUTIC FOR ME. THEY HAVE EXPOSED ME TO THE HILT... I DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT. EVEN WRITING THIS BLOG COULD AS WELL BE TERMED ILLEGAL BECAUSE ITS NOT BEING DONE WITH PRIOR PERMISSION OF MY DIVINE PARENTS. I RESPECT THEIR RESILIENCE AND SALUTE THEIR BIGHEARTEDNESS BECAUSE IF IT WEREN'T FOR THEIR SUPPORT , I SURELY WOULD HAVE UNDERGONE COMPLETE INSEMINATION. I KNOW THAT I HAVE TO PROVE MYSELF AND I ALSO AM AWARE THAT MY PRESENT STATE OF AFFAIRS HAS NOT BEEN REACHED BY MERE NEGLIGENCE. IT HAS TAKEN ROOTS BECAUSE OF MY DIRTY MIND PLAYING THE MOST RUTHLESS AND EVIL GAMES ON MY BRAIN THAT HAS GOT JAMMED AND SPAMMED BY ALL KINDS OF RUBBISH THAT IT COULD EVER GET HOLD OF. ANYWAYS LET US EXAMINE THE SIDES OF THIS "TRICKY" COIN CALLED EXAMINATIONS. FIRST THINGS FIRST - I WASN'T PREPARED AT ALL AND YES I DO ATTRIBUTE THAT TO MY DORMANT MIND AND MY LACKADAISICAL APPROACH AND SPIRIT ! ANYWAYS, I STILL MANAGED TO TAKE THE EXAMS AS A HIGHLY INEXPERIENCED ROOKIE AND FARED BADLY. I JUST GOT THROUGH TO Xii STANDARD BY GODS GRACE AS IF IT HAD NOT BEEN HIM, THEN I WOULD SURELY HAVE HAD DEVISED A PERFECT RECIPE FOR DISASTER. PHYSICS AND CHEMISTRY COMPLETELY SHOOK THE EARTH BELOW ME. A GOOD SHOW AT THE PRACTICALS RESULTED IN ME JUST SCRAPING IT THROUGH WITH ABYSMAL MARKS OF FIFTY-FIVE AND FIFTY-FOUR OUT OF HUNDRED RESPECTIVELY; AND YES THIS WAS BY FAR MY MOST FILTHY PERFORMANCE ! MATHS DIDN'T SPARE ME EITHER - A PATHETIC SIXTY - THREE AND A HALF OUT OF HUNDRED WHEN I WAS ACTUALLY EXPECTING AT LEAST IN THE EIGHTIES...! BUT AS THEY SAY EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED ... I SCORED THE HIGHEST MARKS IN ENGLISH IN MY CLASS AND ALL OF THE THREE SECTIONS (PRESUMABLY). AN UNPRECEDENTED SEVENTY-EIGHT AND A HALF MARKS OUT OF NINETY AND THEN A RATHER PALE EIGHT AND A HALF OUT OF TEN IN THE LISTENING AND SPEAKING SKILLS (GIVING A GRAND TOTAL OF EIGHTY - SEVEN ) WHEN I SHOULD HAVE SCORED AT LEAST A NINE AND A HALF. NEVERTHELESS SNEAKING IN A MASTERSTROKE IN MIDST OF ALL THE DULLNESS THAT REPORT CARD SHALL BE ASSOCIATED WITH IS NOT THAT BAD AN IDEA AFTER ALL ! AS FAR AS COMPUTER SCIENCE IS CONCERNED , I SCORED A RESPECTABLE EIGHTY- FIVE AND A HALF (CONSIDERING THE OTHERWISE INCREDIBLE MARKSHEET). THAT WAS OF SPEAKING OF THE RESULTS. NOW I HAVE SOMETHING OF A TASK WHICH IS AS DAUNTING AS MY WILLPOWER TO WATCH TELEVISION..I HAVE TO FINISH OFF THE ELEVENTH STANDARD CURRICULA OF PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY AND MATHS BEFORE TWELFTH STANDARD AND THE GUYS AT YUKTI START TAKING ME FOR A RIDE. THAT IS IT FOR THE DAY. I KNOW I AM ON THE PATH OF RESURRECTION AND I KNOW THAT I SHALL LET MYSELF AND MY DEAR LORD IN HEAVEN TO LEAD ME BAK ON THE PATH OF GLORY ! AMEN ! JAI DADI KI ! NAMO RAGHVAYA !!! :) KEEP SMILING , KEEP SAILING !